Sunday, January 28, 2007

Love

The Two Greatest Loves Of My Life!

The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face...


Here we are holding our baby girl for the first time.

Welcome to the world!!!!!


Elektra Cali Mattingly
Born On
Saturday, January 20th @ 9:42 pm
6 Pounds, 14 Ounces

Thursday, January 25, 2007

A Birth Story

Despite the efforts of the doctors at Madigan, I did not get induced on January 16th. After doing a lot of research and a lot more praying, Ray and I decided it would be best if we allowed our daughter to be born naturally.

On the evening of January 19th I started feeling some “serious” contractions. Ray tried to help me keep my mind off the pain. We watched a movie, joked around and enjoyed a great dinner. We both felt it was best for me to get as much sleep as I could before the contractions started getting really intense, so we went to bed early.

Around 6am the contractions were coming harder and closer together. I woke up Ray and he started timing them for me. They were seven to ten minutes apart. Madigan was at least on hour away on a good day, so we decided it was best to get ready and go.

The bags were packed and taken to the car. The baby car seat had already been installed a week before. We loaded the last minute items and Ray put a towel on my seat, “just in case”. Soon we were on our way.

During the drive there, Ray continued to time my contractions. By the time we reached Madigan parking lot my contractions were four minutes apart. We took our time getting to the Labor & Delivery wing. We had took the advice of our doctor and pre-registered the week before so that all we had to do was just show up and have the baby.

I was taken to triage and placed on monitors. My vitals were taken and as I laid there on the bed, Ray and I began using the breathing and touch-release exercises we learned in childbirth class. One of the doctors came in and explained some of the things that may go on during labor and the usual standard of care in each situation.

Soon I was taken to my birthing room.

“Hello Mrs. Mattingly. I’m going to me your nurse this morning. After I ask you a few questions and enter some information into the computer I’m going to start your IV.”

After answering her questions she started prepping me for the IV.

“Don’t worry Michelle, this will only take a minute.”

She stabbed me five times before she finally called in a specialist.

“So Michelle, what would you like for pain relief?”

“Oh, I would like IV meds please.”

“Well the problem with IV meds is that during the last couple of hours when the pain is the most intense, that’s the time we have to stop giving you meds through your IV so it won’t transfer to the baby.”

“I’m well aware of that. I would just prefer to have IV drugs. I really don’t want an epidural.”

“Is this your first child, Michelle?”

“Yes.”

“Well, most first time parents come in thinking they are not going to get an epidural. They always change their mind later.”

“Well, I am not like most first time moms”, I whispered under my breath.

Ray stood by me and protected me. He was my advocate, making sure that my needs were met and that nothing was done to me that I didn’t want done. This really ticked off my nurse. At one point when everyone had stepped out of the room my nurse approached me.

“Michelle, your husband feels very strongly about you not getting a epidural and not having a catheter.”

“Yes, it’s because I don’t like either one. I’ve had two spinal taps so I sort of know what an epidural feels like. I’ve also had problems in the past regarding catheters, so I’d rather avoid one when possible.”

“Has anyone ever hurt you, Michelle?”

“No.”

“Do you feel threaten of feel you would be threaten or hurt if you speak for yourself?”

“No. I speak for myself and when I can’t, my husband speaks for me.”

“He is very strong-minded and forceful.”

“He has to be. We’ve been through a lot during this pregnancy.”

“And this is your first child ever?”

“Yes.”

“And for your husband, does he have any other children.”

“No. This is a first for both of us.”

“And throughout this pregnancy no one close to you has physically hurt you or said anything that made you feel threatened?”

“No. My husband does not abuse me!”

Just then Ray came back into the room.

In a short time another doctor came in the check my cervix. Despite all my contracting I was only one centimeter dilated. But I wasn’t worried and neither was the doctor. She told me that my cervix might need a little help getting started and suggested a balloon method. (I’m not going into details about how this works. If you really want to know just do a Google search on methods of inducing.)

At some point the baby’s heart rate dropped. I only knew this because all at once five nurses came running in and started pushing me every which way in order to get her heart rate back up. Her heart did get back to normal. However, the doctor was very concerned.

The hours passed quickly. Soon our friends David and Elsa arrived to keep us company. Our dear friend Chaplin Wheaton also joined us for a little while.

As the day went on I had only progressed two centimeters. The baby’s heart rate was starting to do some funny things. The doctor suggested I get an epidural because the chance of getting a C-section was becoming greater and greater for me. After talking alone with Ray we decided that it would be best to have one now while everything was still calm then to try and have one in the midst of an emergency.

Let me tell you right now. I HATE EPIDURALS!!!!! I have never felt something so uncomfortable in my life. And I’m not just talking about the five times that the specialist had to stab me in the back before she found a good spot. The best way I can describe an epidural is it feels like your body is going into a coma and there is nothing you can do to stop it. I couldn’t even feel myself breathing. I’ll take the pains of labor over an epidural any day!

Now, laying there almost completely motionless we waited.

The doctor came in and explained that it was getting harder to get a good reading of the baby’s heartbeat, so she had one of the nurses come in and try to insert an internal monitor. My water broke and it was discovered that the baby had already had a bowl movement. The doctor waited to see if my labor would start to progress more now that my water had broke.
However, not long after she left the room she came running back in followed by four other nurses.

“Michelle, we need you to turn over. The baby’s heart rate has dropped.”

She yelled for more help as about three other nurses came running in. I was placed on my side. I was given a caffeine shot to wake the baby. I was placed on my other side and then asked to get up on all fours. But nothing was working.

“Michelle, her heart rate is not going up. We have to do an emergency C-section.”

This was one of my greatest fears and biggest nightmare all through my pregnancy. And now here I was living within this nightmare with no way of waking up from it.

Still on all fours my bed was rushed to the operating room just down the hall. Ray tried to follow, but someone had grab him by the shoulder and asked him to put on some scrubs.

The O.R. was filled with nurses moving quickly to get everything assembled for the operation. The doctor in charged explained what was going on and what would soon be happening. They nowlaid me on the operating table. I was given a oxygen mask and told to just concentrate on breathing.

The baby’s heart rate went back up. The doctor announced this to everyone in the room. She advised everyone to slow there pace a little and proceed as a normal C-section. Stronger medication was starting to be pumped into my epidural.

I knew that most C-sections took place with the mother still being fully awake for the operation. In this situation the husband can be with his wife sitting next to her head and keeping her company. I hoped this would be the case for us. I was so scared and I wanted Ray with me more then anything at that moment.

Suddenly the baby’s heart rate dropped again. I looked to the side just in time to see the heart monitor show her hear rate rapidly drop from 130 bpm to 40 bpm. The medicine in my epidural had not yet kicked in. But there was no time.

“I’m sorry Michelle, but we are going to have to put you under.”

Two nurses came over , grabbed my arms and strapped them down quickly. Someone was flushing medication into my IV with great speed. It hurt so bad, I tried to scream. But I never got a chance to.

(I would be told later that during this time Ray waited in the birthing room all dressed in his scrubs hoping to join me during the operation. After some time had passed he realized that something was wrong. No one was coming to get him. Elsa said that Ray’s face had a look on it that she had never seen before. “I didn’t know what to say or do, Michelle. No one would tell your husband what was going on. Suddenly Ray just got down on his knees and started praying”.)

“Mrs. Mattingly. Mrs. Mattingly, wake up. Congratulations. Your baby is fine. She is nice and healthy. She is with your husband now. Your husband is very anxious to see you. He has been asking about you ever since we took you back here. I have never seen a man so committed to his wife's care and safety like that. You two are very lucky to have each other.”

My bed was being wheeled back into the birthing room. As we turned the corner into the room there was Ray standing there just beaming with a little bundle held close to his heart.

The next few hours were mostly a blur. I do remember Elsa and David saying their goodbyes to us. I also remember that sometime during the night we were transferred to another room.

As soon as the drugs wore off I got to hold our little girl and feed her for the first time. I must make a confession- I didn’t exactly bond with her the moment I saw her. I fell in love with her instantly. But it was strange. I knew this was my daughter but it didn’t feel like she was mine. One moment I was pregnant, I was put to under and when I woke up I was told I was no longer pregnant. I cried. I cried over the lost of a birth experience I felt cheated out of. And I cried again when Ray told me why I ended up getting an emergency C-section.

“Honey, the reason why her heart rate kept dropping was because the umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck twice. The more your contractions started pushing her down the more she was being strangled. The part of the umbilical cord that was around her neck was the part closest to the placenta wall which would have ripped out and caused massive bleeding. Both of you were in danger. There was no other way she could have been born.”

During the next few days Ray and I would be tested as new parents. Low blood sugar would send Elektra to the NICU and it would take a fight on our part to get her out of there. The NICU wanted to keep her for weeks or months if necessary until their doctors felt satisfied with her blood sugar level. Unfortunately there was a new doctor overseeing the NICU every shift. So what satisfied one doctor didn’t satisfy the next. Eventually we had to stand our ground for our child’s sake. When they realized we weren’t backing down or leaving the hospital without our baby, they called in a lactation specialist and it was discovered that the problem was that her jaws just wasn’t strong enough yet to fully breastfeed and that I would have to pump for awhile.

Now we are finally home and settling into life as new parents. Ray will be leaving to go back to Hawaii soon. And shortly after, I will be moving back to Arizona. When Ray finishes his sea time our goal is to have him spend the rest of his shore duty working in the Phoenix area.

Depending of his sub’s schedule I hope Elektra and I will get to spend time with Ray in Hawaii during his birthday and for the Fourth of July.

Right now Ray is spending every moment he can with his daughter, no matter how short the time may. It is sad to know that Ray won’t get a chance to see the look on his mom’s face when she first lays eyes on her new grandchild. And he will miss the honor of introducing Elektra to her Godparents. This will be a painful separation for us but it is the best and only option we have right now. I’ve promised to fill his email box weekly with tons of pictures of our beautiful baby girl. I know that in the end, Elektra won’t remember the seven months when her father was away; only the many years to come when her father will always be there for her.

Getting Ready to Pop


Here I am at 38 weeks! Finally there is something on my body that is actually bigger then my butt!

Thursday, January 18, 2007

The OB Visit

On December 26th Ray and I went to Madigan for my scheduled OB appointment. Earlier that morning Ray had been online researching pregnancy and Sickle Cell disease. Ray was shocked at the amount of things that were not done for me during my pregnancy. He printed out the information and we took it with us along with that bottle of pee I was asked to bring in.

Going to the OB always starts with a bit of a battle for Ray and I. The reason is that Madigan has this policy of bring the pregnant woman in first and then later bringing in the husband. The reason is due to what they call, 'Patient Confidentiality'. This always makes me laugh because the only thing they do when they take me to the back room is get my weight, height and blood pressure.

Well, earlier in my pregnancy, after about the second OB visit, Ray decided that he had every right to be with me every second of my appointment. This got him into some heated arguments with the nurses every time we came. Despite their best efforts and their worst threats, Ray would not leave my side. And this day was no different.

Before the nurse could get a word out Ray blurted out, "I know what your policy is, but I'm not leaving my wife alone. She is pregnant and not feeling too well today so I'm staying with her. You are not doing anything that I can't be allowed to watch."

This particular nurse tried to block Ray from coming down the hall behind me. Using her most stern nurse voice she stated to Ray that I would only be away from him for just a moment and if he would so kindly wait in a room, that I would join him shortly.

"Why do I have to wait in another room?"

"We have to protect the privacy of our patients. This is why we ask you to wait outside, so if you..."

"What privacy? That's my wife. You're not even doing anything but taking vitals. What? I'm not allowed to see how much she weights? No, I'm not going to another room, I'm staying with her. If you want to stop me then we'll just both leave and you can tell the doctor why we left."

She still continued to put up a fight, but Ray was no longer listening. He pushed his way pass her and joined me just as another nurse was helping me get up on the scale.

After the vitals were done we were escorted to a room to wait for the doctor.

A nurse came in to inform us that the doctor I was scheduled to met with was pulled away to do an emergency C-section and that I would be seeing one of the other OB's.

To our surprise, this other doctor was an Airforce doctor. Not what you would usually find at an Army hospital. This doctor was very nice and it was a relief to find out that he actually knew a little about Sickle Cell. We let him know our complaints and how I felt unfairly treated during my last crisis. He understood our concerns and apologized for the actions of those that had treated me while I was admitted.

Ray noticed the doctor's ranking on his uniform. When the doctor had to step out of the room for a moment, Ray turned to me.

"Honey, in Army ranking he out ranks every doctor we've ever seen here at Madigan. He even outranks the MFM's. In the Navy he would be like right above my CO."


The doctor returned and we went over the notes from my last visit. The January 2nd induction was thrown out the window. We instead talked about a possible induction on the 16th in which time our baby's lungs would be fully ready for the outside world. Ray and I left the OB appointment feeling very relieved. We still didn't feel to great about the whole induction but the doctor gave us a lot of information to think over to help us make a decision.

Later that evening I got a call from Dr. Yee, who I was suppose to meet with that day. He saw in his notes that I would not be coming in on January 2nd for an amnio and induction. He apologized for not being able to meet with us and told me that he put in the paperwork to have my induction rescheduled for the 16th.

I still wasn't sure about the whole induction thing, but now I knew I had some time to research the facts and make an informed decision.

Christmas

Ray flew back to Washington the evening of December 22nd. It was so nice to have him home. I was still in shock with the realization that I would be spending Christmas with my hubby. I had been all prepared to spend a quite Christmas alone. (Well, not really alone. There are the cats and a constantly moving baby in my tummy).

Christmas eve morning found us at church enjoying our first ever lighting of the Advent candles. Ray was so excited to be given the honor of lighting all five candles. We spent the rest of Christmas eve cleaning the house, putting up the Christmas tree and discussing my most recent visit to Madigan Hospital. We unloaded the wonderful Christmas presents that Ray's family sent us and placed them under the tree. We were very proud of ourselves this year. We actually managed to send out Christmas cards. Due to the fact I was in the hospital they got mailed out a little late, but as long as they arrived before New Years we figured it would still be okay.

That evening we attended the midnight service at the local United Methodist Church. It was wonderful singing our way through the Nativity story. The music was great and the service was just as we like it- short and sweet. The service ended with the lighting of the candles and a blessing for a wonderful new year.

After service we stopped by Shari's, a local diner and filled ourselves with some midnight snacks. Then we went home and crashed in bed like two kids who stayed up way too long waiting for Santa.

Christmas morning almost came and went without a creature stirring in the Mattingly house. It was almost noon before we got up and came downstairs to open gifts.

Because of the extra blood in my system due to the pregnancy I have developed arthritis in both hands. This has resulted in my hands going painfully numb to the point that I can not do simple things like tie my shoes or open a can of soda. So, after laughing over the site of me trying to remove a bow from a gift, Ray took on the job of pre-opening all my gifts for me.

Later that evening we had our friends- David, Elisa and Crystal over for Christmas dinner. Overall, it turned out to be a surprisingly peaceful Christmas. As Christmas day came to a close Ray and I both realized that this may be the last peaceful Christmas we will have for a very long time. Which just made this Christmas all the more special!